Wedding

My closed cousin will be married today. Its a shame i can't attend his wedding. The other thing made me piss off is I can't be his bridesmaid. Should be my turn!!! Cause I am far a way from him, my family, my younger cousin took my place.!!!
I never be any body's bridesmaid before, cause i was young and i have some other cousin who is older than me and not married at that time.
Now , Its my turn, but I can;t even attend his wedding!
ai, Why i am here, in this bloody boring place?
Wish you have a nice marriage.