Sorry

Too much presure, not only because grandma, also because the presure from mum and dad. They really want me to find a bf. And even aranged some boy for me. God, the all very excellent. I can say, any girl will love them, but not me. I can't like them. I feel very guilty!!! I know myself, I still can't 100% move on. I can't accept any of them. I know they are much better than P no matter from family or themself. But I still can't. I think I deeply in love with him. Someone does not exist anymore. I am in love with the one who i will never meet again. Sorry.