Home ---家

At home now, though i don't really want to. I have no other choice, i cannot avoid this day. I have to face it.
Visited grandma as soon as I arrived home. I know i shouldn't cry when i see her, but i can't help it. I can't handle this. She is nearly there. Might just for a few days. How can i see her to leave us. If i not go home, she might still have a hope in her mind that she will going to see me before she go there. But now, I am standing infront of her, she might will think nothing else she need to wait, and she might will go. This is the last thing i want to see. This is the reason why i don't want to go home. I want she be alive. Just alive, even with all the tubes around her. I need she be in this world. She is my lovely grandma, i grow up with her, she raise me...... I will be my fault if she leave us after i went home to visit her. I love her so much.