Resume

Opened an old file, try to find my resume. Looking for a change now.
why everything has a little relationship with him. That's the resume he modified for me, the file is under his name, the personal is him. Everything, made me think about him.
The funny thing is on my msn, my school mate uses his name as a name. He even never know P's existence and he is in china. My very good mate, we chat everyday. I really want to ask him to change his name on msn. But i tell myself, this might be a good challenge. I will not be bothered by just a name.
Or is that god want me to still remember him, and god want me suffer.
I am in a deep shit for this whole year. Tones of tears. And millions of sadness monments. But as long as he is happy out there. I am happy. I will not going to bother his life. He deserves a better girl.
One more thing i might never mentioned here. During this holiday time, my dad and mum all asked me about him. They can feel how much i have been hurt, but they still very nice to ask me to say hi if i am contact p. Mum and Dad, sorry, I don;t know where he is, and I don;t think i will have any chance to talk to him.
Sorry mum, sorry dad, that's all my fault. All my mistake. I can' change it. Sorry. Sorry I let your baby get hurt. Sorry, I did put too much into that relationship. I did trust him too much. I am an idiot and I am a loser. Sorry!