Thanks Pam Pam

Thanks for your comments Pam Pam. I know, I know all this. But just hard to do, to control myself. I tried a lots of crazy things after my break up. I went clubbing -- I even can't dance. I made myself drunk -- I never touch a drop of alcohol before and got very drunk. I spend all of my money on the things I don't need. I sit near the beach utill dark by myself. I even had a car accident, because of thinking. I tried to be with the man who chased me before. But all those did not work! I believed that I have to be royalty, we my have a chance to get back, because he use to like me sooo much.