Life is short

I couldn't sleep last night. A lots of things pass towards my mind after watching inside 9.11 from Foxtel. 4 years ago, the only thing in my mind is US been attacked and the scene is better than any of Hollywood's movies. It is real and cool with different angle. ( I don't like America that much. The main reason why I did not go US to study. )

But last night I felt so sorry for what happened 4 years ago. Maybe I am more mature now. I can feel the hurt of losing lovers. God bless them! All the quintessence people worked at World Trade Centre. What a lose for the world.

Life is short. I totally understand that a dead body can course so many pain for its family and friends. Apart from that nature disaster and terror attack, some other reasons may make you want to terminate your life as well.

Such as Loose a Lover, I mean a real lover, the relationship lover. But think that way, once you dead who will care by that reason? Do you expecting he or she to remember you? Do you think he or she would care about it? I don't think so. I would only do this because I sick of being still alive in stead of wanting he or she feel sorry for me. If you want him or her back, you need to be alive at least. At least have a whole body which he or she can refer to or touch.

Life is short, really short. That's why I am trying to keep all what I already have or had. I really want him to give me that little chance. Life is short, I will not ruin him life by stuck on me. I said so many times, if we are not suitable for each other by trying for one more time, I will leave him for sure. Because I want him to be happy, I will let him free. But I want to try once more!