One year ago

For the last past 6 month I lived in a Hell! It was the darkest time of my whole entire life. But for the 11 month before that, I was living in a Heaven, that was my happyest time for more than 20 years.

You may already have some idea what it was about. For my age, and the time period I was talking about, it must involved with a man. Right, it is. It is all about him. The man I liked so much, and still like heaps till now, and will like forever, for my rest of my life.

I never write any diary or anything. Because I am not good at writing, I hate to write diaries when I was at school. But now I want to, I want to express something from my deep heart. I want to spit all of this suffering out of my stomach. I can't handle this anymore. I don't want to live in the hell by myself. It's too hard and too lonely.